Michael Joe Jackson
August 29th 1958 - June 25th 2009
Friday, June 26, 2009
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Still Unhealthy
Being sick for two weeks, especially the first two weeks of summer is definitely not the way I thought I'd be spending my time. After the dumbass food consumption problems and fever, I'm left stuck with the dumb coughs. Along with that, I'm still not allowed out of the house except for the occasional errand-run. That doesn't really seem to stop me, but still.
I still don't feel like myself and I just wanna say I appreciate the people who are being patient with me. Always and just cause.
Short and simple; my head kinda hurts so I think I'll stop here.
Gnight.
I still don't feel like myself and I just wanna say I appreciate the people who are being patient with me. Always and just cause.
Short and simple; my head kinda hurts so I think I'll stop here.
Gnight.
Friday, June 12, 2009
SUMMER
I'm sick. Really sick. When I'm finally cured though...
Bring on Summer! I really can't express how happy it makes me.
It's SUMMEER, so yea we have plans and are gonna make more, don't trip. I really am not gonna waste this time now.
Let's kickit sometime.
OUT
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
Decisions
It feels like I haven't used my brain in days. Can't think straight bout the important things and its annoying. Today I'm feeling sick and my voice was jacked, but whatever.
I had a GOOODASS day (=
In the back of my mind, the possibility of moving and leaving everything here behind me is fcken terrifying. It's as if as soon as everything starts coming together, I might have to leave it. I really do not want to.
As for the other things, I've recently come to the conclusion that friends are liable to cause set backs. it's the real friends that encourage you do get shit done.
Yea now I feel tired and naps are lovely.
OUT.
Friday, June 5, 2009
Damnn
My eyes really hurt right now. But theres stuff that I really wanna say, so ima write this shit out anyways.
It really bothers me to have those weirdass uncomfortable thoughts always going on in the back of my mind.
For one, I don't understand why some people have to be so fcken immature, but then again I get that we're not teens forever.
If friends are tight and they trust eachother and all that supposed goodstuff, why do they turn on eachother and get those lame doubts. I'm not saying i don't cause Honestly, i do. TRUST is supposedly essential in these relationships, but shooot i doubt anyone really completely trusts someone, even if they really want to.
Then there's the insecurities. It's easy to convince yourself that you really don't give a fuck. But if you're doing that, doesn't that MEAN you actually do CARE. Those insecurities just hold people back. Keep it real, please.
And then those other relationships. Why do people instantly assume that being together means SEX? I don't get how some guys can talk about it like there's no feelings involved. Sure, i get the whole no strings thing, cause in a way it's like legalized prostitution in Vegas, but otherwise shouldnt you actually put SOME kind of consideration into what you say and do? Fuck, its kind of crazy to me to think how could some people be so stupid or indifferent bout the whole thing.
On a daily basis, I don't usually think of all this stuff, but today for some reason i needed to just get it out there. Not fronting, not bullshitting, just putting the thoughts out there.
OUT.
It really bothers me to have those weirdass uncomfortable thoughts always going on in the back of my mind.
For one, I don't understand why some people have to be so fcken immature, but then again I get that we're not teens forever.
If friends are tight and they trust eachother and all that supposed goodstuff, why do they turn on eachother and get those lame doubts. I'm not saying i don't cause Honestly, i do. TRUST is supposedly essential in these relationships, but shooot i doubt anyone really completely trusts someone, even if they really want to.
Then there's the insecurities. It's easy to convince yourself that you really don't give a fuck. But if you're doing that, doesn't that MEAN you actually do CARE. Those insecurities just hold people back. Keep it real, please.
And then those other relationships. Why do people instantly assume that being together means SEX? I don't get how some guys can talk about it like there's no feelings involved. Sure, i get the whole no strings thing, cause in a way it's like legalized prostitution in Vegas, but otherwise shouldnt you actually put SOME kind of consideration into what you say and do? Fuck, its kind of crazy to me to think how could some people be so stupid or indifferent bout the whole thing.
On a daily basis, I don't usually think of all this stuff, but today for some reason i needed to just get it out there. Not fronting, not bullshitting, just putting the thoughts out there.
OUT.
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Procrastinating again
Currently listening to:
I never thought it'd turn out this way. I always thought by now I'd be somewhere bigger, somewhere where my wildest dreams came true. This shit was back when my biggest problem was learning to count to 100. Those days are missed so bad. Currently avoiding a lot of useless stuff that I won't need in the future. I honestly don't see why I try so hard anymore. When these other dumbasses somehow get what they want with the least effort.
As of now, 7 more days till I'm stress free. Then Driver's ed, summer, and those long warm nights out. I have no plans, no agenda, no priorities when that finally comes. I've successfully stopped caring about the other parts of life and I'm focusing on what's needed. Really can say I'm feeling better now and it's been a long time.
I never thought it'd turn out this way. I always thought by now I'd be somewhere bigger, somewhere where my wildest dreams came true. This shit was back when my biggest problem was learning to count to 100. Those days are missed so bad. Currently avoiding a lot of useless stuff that I won't need in the future. I honestly don't see why I try so hard anymore. When these other dumbasses somehow get what they want with the least effort.
As of now, 7 more days till I'm stress free. Then Driver's ed, summer, and those long warm nights out. I have no plans, no agenda, no priorities when that finally comes. I've successfully stopped caring about the other parts of life and I'm focusing on what's needed. Really can say I'm feeling better now and it's been a long time.
Monday, June 1, 2009
HONESTY
I really don't know where I stand, but be real with me and tell me whasup. Cause if you don't I won't know. If you really care, you'd tell me the truth. I hate liars. In the end nothing they say can be taken as true.
Sucks for them.
Sucks for them.
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