Insanity

Haha well as of now, H says there's only 11days of school left. FINALLY! Those summer nights keep sounding better and better. Hectic 11 days..

Before I get the thoughts going, keep this in mind: It's not perfect, but I love my life. Cause I only have this one.
Ready?

Not a pessimistic, but I can be. You know those bad days we all have..There's been too many. Right now, I've stopped caring.
There's things I can't control, too many, and I'm finally coming to the realization that I shouldn't focus on them. I should be thinking of what I know can actually change and make things better for me. Really, I do have a life to love right? Within the next few months I don't know what will happen. Might lose some special things in my life, but if theres nothing I can do, I'm going to have to live with it.The only thing i see coming from some shit is premature wrinkles, frustration, and those tough days. Wish me well..? or not, I really don't care. cause I'm gon get through.
Just when I think everythings getting better, turns out I'm dead wrong. Think I'm gonna turn out numb to it all someday.
So um. "fuckmylife"?
Just kidding.



OUT.

Fck HIIT

So the director/coach told us they want to get us fighters started on interval training, ASAP. Sore every other week lately, this'll just add to it. After a session of this HIIT...Today, my legs, shoulders, stomach, and even my ass is in pain with just walking. BG says I'm walking hella weird. Great.

With everything else in life, it's chill as of now. There's no point in me stressing about it, just a few more days of school, then I'm on a longggasss BREAK, feel me?

Case of You?

"And I can't play it off like we friends like I used to, know I can't pretend like I used to. So now im lyin in my bed thinkin bout you. And what do I do? Man I feel like I'm comin down with a case of you"

He has a sexy voice.
Currently unenthusiastic about a couple of things. Putting up with everything gets me feeling kinda numb, if that makes sense. So tired of feeling like I'm going in circles. I'm excited for some sun and a beach this weekend hopefully, getaway for a few days. Hit me up and keep me company?

Shared:


OUT.

Security

Got me thinkin you're too insecure. Caring bout what they think will lead to you screwing yourself over. Stop frontin, it doesn't matter, 'cause you know whasup.
I'm looking out for myself. Having fun too. And I wish things could be different, but that's not stressin me.
"If you leave, you're leaving the best. So you'll have to settle for less."

OUT.

5-15

Not even late, and drained.
People choose what mood they wish to be in. For whatever reason, if depression suits you, there's nothin to it. It's staying positive that shows your strength. Go on and be a downer breh. I really do care but if ya just brush it off, I'm going on with the parade, feel me? Cause yea.. pardon me, but I'm allergic to bullshit.

"it's the freakin weekend and I'm bout to have me some fun."

OUT.

Happening

"The single mover is very powerful, since it directs so vast and complex a machine. It is very intelligent, since the smallest spring of this machine cannot be equaled by us." -Voltaire

I realized some time early this week something that I should have always known but failed to recognize. Like an epiphany, the thought came to mind when a friend asked me a simple question. But,
It's funny how these things happen. In a ball on confusion, all I really want is to sleep the days away and wake up one day ready to travel and find the truths till I'm satisfied. Maybe in the future possibly I'll have a chance to ask you about anything on my mind and get a truthfully refreshing answer in return. Asking now in midst of what my teacher calls social immaturity, would simply be either awkward or too much for you to handle. Maybe I'm wrong, but i kind of doubt it.

-Happy Birthday RobPattinson!
OUT.

Assumptions

"It gets awkward when people jump to conclusions and form their own judgements before they get their facts straight. It makes us question: Did the saying "never judge a book by it's cover" ever have any effect?"

Feels like those around me have been making a big deal out of smalll things. It's been as if some insignificant actions have somehow formed into messes.
What I do on a regular basis shouldn't worry anyone who hardly knows me. For a fact, I don't bother worrying about their business either, unless it's somehow directly related to me. Should be simple. Everything happens for a reason. Definitely not perfect, but I know what I want and recognize self-respect.

Today, someone asked me how everything is. I'm usually not in the mood for these questions...really don't know why. It just seems like a lame conversation starter I guess. On a regular basis I'd reply with a one-word answer, GOOD. This time, I didn't know what to say. I think I'm gonna take a breakk soon.
kayy, Im Outt.

Smelled like burning

"Life's a climb, but the view is worth it".

Playing around is fun and all, no complaints there at all, be chill, right? But.. I really do appreciate honesty. I'm willing to take all the truths, as long as people stop fronting and get the guts to say it. If you're too shy, you kind of just let things slip away.

For General Audiences

I don't like it when people put everything out there. There's a certain point when it gets overrated. Keep some things to yourself- it's really not hard to figure whether it's immature or not. As for people telling everybody bout how they feel, that's your choice. Don't get ridiculous.

R&R

If I could go back in time, I really don't think I'd change much. Yea, I'd take back some wasted words, apologies, and such but nothing more. Wouldn't be the same if I changed more than that.

Today: Wasn't feeling the weather and the company around me much. It's almost the feeling of being held back or boxed in. I think I need some rest and recovery or something? Reconsidering going to Jr. Prom though; friend has the ticket for me already...hopefully he can find someone else who would like to go. I'm guilty cause it's last minute. Also, I might skip D's party this weekend. She knows I'll make up for it later.
I think the parents aren't on speaking terms again. My godmother called to say she wants me to know that that's not what a relationship is supposed to be like. She says she hopes I know. Let's hope I do.

I'm out.